why no title ? because i don't have any idea to put what was the title about , maybe it was about MY FUCKIN LIFE ! damn hate it , why i say like that ? maybe some of you already know why i say like that , seriously i don't know from where i have to start it . urmmm , my life is not WONDERFUL like others . my life just simple , i have my FAMILY , FRIENDS , COUSIN , NEPHEW , OWN LIFE and others . but just one thing i don't have right now , a TRUE LOVE ! i haven't found it yet , maybe i will found it one day ! hope so , sometime i'm falter jealous with some other girls cause they already found they true love . but why i can't get like them ? i keep thinking why this happen to me ? when i'm already love someone they will HURT ME , make me disappointed , SAD , UNHAPPY . seriously i hate it when i feel like that , it make me feel like i'm USELESS , STUPID , DAMN UGLY and many others . maybe i'm UNSUITABLE to fall in love right ! yeah , sometime people like me but i'm not , we can force someone to like them right . eish , why la i have to keep thinking about this stupid things . it didn't give me anything la , wake up la dear ! you must believe with yourself ok ! no matter what happen JUST BE YOURSELF ! only YOU and YOURSELF ! remember what kaka yana told you 'adik jangan risau k , mesti ada yg nak dekat adik' adik always ingat kata kaka ni , thanks a lot kaka ! but adik still terasa like i don't have anyone in this world even i have my family and friends , sometime I HATE MYSELF ! it's all because of you CAPITAL N ! you're the source for all this , DAMN HATE YOU ! you know what i'm always open your FB , why ? because i can't forget you and what you have done ! you stole my heart but then you crush it , you really HURT me ! 5 months more you know i suffer because of you , arghhhhh damn ! beside that i have so many problem , eish . really need someone that can keep accompanies me and lend she/he shoulder so that i can cry , then she/he will hug me and persuade me . damn tension now , dengan result spm then test lesen ! eish , what should i do know . my heart and my mind empty like a GLASSES WITHOUT ANY WATER ! but i need to pretend like nothing happen to me and be happy like others , no one will know what was in my heart and what i'm thinking . NO ONE WILL KNOW !
by the way thanks to them cause always by my side and support me , ATIEN , ADIK LISSA , KAKA YANA , FATIN SYUHADA , ADIK ZATY , ABANG AREP , IJAT , KIMI , AZYRA , TASYA , BETTY , ZAHIRAH , ABANG BAD , KANDA JAD and others . a million thanks korang ! sorry if i did anything wrong with you all by the way LOVEYOUALLDAMNFUCKINSOMUCH ! eish , asyik sedih jew meyh . i know that korang pown don't want to see me like that right , i'm also want like that . but what can i do now , this things always happen to me and even i look happy by deep inside my heart no one know . only me and god now that !